Dont know who I am

I just don´t know who I am
Or why my world spins around you
I´m left unsure of what to do
As my life gets out of my hands

What´s with this pain on my chest
That I feel when I see you with someone else
It cuts so deep, sharp, and dense
That at night I can´t even rest

What do I feel?
Why do I care?
If it can heal
It will follow me everywhere

My heart is filled with so much fear
Afraid of losing the one that I love
The mere thought makes me break into sobs
And leaves my mind unclear

I just don´t know who I am
Or why my world spins around you
I´m left unsure of what to do
As my life gets out of my hands

I´m so tired of always feeling blue
Afraid of growing sad, weak, and alone
I´ve tried so much to stand up on my own
Even right now,I still don´t have a clue

I might not know where I need to go
But I´ll push myself forward nonstop
I´ll lock my heart until things brighten up
And I´ll continue to do it until I say so

I just don´t know who I am
Or why my world spins around you
I´m left unsure of what to do
As my life gets out of my hands